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me

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strategizing

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manipulation

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blackmail

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part

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that

and

the

reality

of

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the

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be

carried

out

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the

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and

actually

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sort

of

tautology

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what

the

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history

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pretty

crummy

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when

you

follow

up

the

meaning

and

history

of

a

word

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its

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fear

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future

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past

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completely

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least

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what

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something

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what

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establishment

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what

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never

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notion

that

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friendliness

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earlier

years

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look

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withered

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measure

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advertising

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authenticity

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technically

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you

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mutual

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really

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designed

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a much

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teenagers

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how

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the

impact

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has

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lives

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obvious

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the

way

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endless

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admiration

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way

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they

will

always

talk

to

you

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though

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their

welfare

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look

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the

genetic

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yourself

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the

slow

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teenagers

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looking

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take

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for

granted

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somethings

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value

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socially

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insanity

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world

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part  2

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the

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cultural

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word

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geometric structure

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detail

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magnification

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matter

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big

you

make

it

you

still

see

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new

details

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many

angels

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the

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than

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fractal

when

you

are

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people

you

are

needing

something

it's

not

just

money

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only

costs

you

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reality

disorientation ?

some

belief

in

a

better

future ?

just

building

and

learning

how

to

work

a

computer

is

all

the

mental

stimulation

i

want !

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men

think

they

are

unappreciated

consider

this

to

fix

things

to

be

compedent

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why

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were

chosen

and

the

work

put

in

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be

snared

the

compliment

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been

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expect

it

to

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made

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passes

if

you've

worked

out

something

a

bit

better

that

gives

strength

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les

murray

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nobel

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something

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prize

how

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virgins

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a

pin ?

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problem

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poetry

re -

wires

your

brain !

everything's

going

wrong

i

am

going

wrong

why

am

i

going

right ?

people

who

reject

you

you

just

have

to

step

back

and

look

to

the

advantage

in

love

it

can

be

an

advantage

not

to

be

in

love

if

there

is

a

god

why

has

thou

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to

bestow

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thy

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on

me ”

only

i

wasn't

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of

it !

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you

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you

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things

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have

to

see

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limitations

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the

present

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up

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to

improve

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it

can't

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hormonal

monsters

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the

door

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way

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californian

legal

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for

intelligence

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is

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fiction

american

culture

scientology

looks

normal

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california

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only

validity ”

case

why

are

you

talking

to

us ? ”

validity

does

not

translate

to

sufficiency

i

don’t

have

an

hypocrisy

about

death

i

have

killed

and

killed

plenty

i

don’t

fear

it

indeed

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it

we

may

not

come

from

something

greater

but

we

certainly

return

to

it

how

to

be

successful

without

actually

having

any

success ?

you

execute

me

you

have

executed

yourselves

arnold schwarzenegger

is

a

total

hypocrite

he

approved

the

execution

of

tookie

williams

who

imo

was

high

testosterone

to

the

point that

remorse

was

not

possible, but was performing

a

socially

useful function with

his

gang kids

outreach

his

attitude

was

not

so

different

from

conan

the

barbarian

as

you

get

older

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you

care

about

is

how

people

are

aging

in

relation

to

you  ; o )

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think

zen

is

basically

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cult

fed

to

the

wolves

from

birth

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hard

about

that ?

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christian

/neville

cooper

a

functioning

schizophrenic

an

atheist

says

this

physical

reality

is

all

there

is

and

thats

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the

case

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adi

da

bert

potter

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the

world

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short

of

endless

self

abetted

cons

if

you

have

a

limited

notion

of

god

you

are

obliged

to

invent

the

circular

notions

of

heaven

and

hell

and

all

that

nonsense

if

they

reject

you

theres

no

obligation

the

degree

of

insanity

in

religion

is

unbelievable

i

am

the

only

authentic

thing

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you

reject

me

you

rejected

me

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and

you

reject

me

now

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are

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me

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favour

and

perhaps

yourself

a

favour

you

go

to

sleep

you

wake

up

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everything

is

work

the

real

thing

always

gets

rejected

cults

are

an

artifact

of

human

evolutionary

breeding

pyschology

you

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be

mentally

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breed

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if

you

make

a

mistake

don’t

repeat

it

have

a

bit

of

a

think

and

working

through

and

get

the

problem

sorted

out

in

your

brain

extraordinary !

8

million

kilometers

of

neuronal

wiring

in

the

human

brain !

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culture

for

aborigines

is

a

particularly

toxic

waterhole

or

dreamtime

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bad

you

people

don’t

know

anything

about

the

absolute

side

of

life

violate

and

shit

on

it

is

your

rule

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is

not

found

in

collectives

god

is

not

found

where

there

are

collectives

religious

or

otherwise

look

at

what

you

actually

do

and

not

what

you

think

you

do

if

you

can't

solve

a

problem

now

leave

it

awhile

you

may

be

able

to

solve

it

later

the

whole

problem

with

fame

is

many

to

one

if

you

don’t

live

for

tomorrow

how

are

things ?

if

you

are

trying

to

tell

people

something

you

must

be

mad

men

are

frightened

by

the

word

celibacy